Change is Tough!
All very true points.... There is no way I would trade my quit for a few pounds now. There's nothing attractive about smoking, and now I would just be 10 pounds heavier and still smoking if I went back to it. Epsom salts bath worked great this weekend, I think I watched 2 hours of breaking bad in there - thaks for that, E. Plus, you're right, K - the knowledge that I am doing kind things for my body and healing all the time really helps. Feeling physically dumpy is sure to pass (my partner looked at me like I was crazy when I told him why I was feeling crappy; he hadn't noticed any weight gain, nevermind the "significant" gain like I felt I had).
This weekend help me get a little perspective... of all things, there was a Marathon race running right outside my condo. I was right in the middle of the route, which was very cool because I got to see all the runners start the race, and then to hit the finish line they have to run past my balcony the other way. It was so inspiring to see both the uber-athletes, as well as those clawing the air and gasping - but still running!! - and finishing the race up to 5 hours and more after they began! Amazing. What a sense of accomplishment they must have felt!
It made me realize that I have to be patient, and keep plugging away. Even those uber-athletes had to start out somewhere and work hard to be where they are, and the even the marathoner that came in last still gets to say they ran a marathon, just like the guy that came in first. I thought that that would be a great goal/challenge to set for myself, and it would help pick me up out of the emo feeling sloggy doldrums. By this time next year I'll be writing that I finished my first marathon last weekend!!
