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14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Question

Hi, Tresa.

It's very nice to meet you as well! Thank you for the kind words.

I'm only 2 hours away from 48 hours smoke-free.

Early in my quit, but a good start. :-)

-Samuel

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/8/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 40
Amount Saved: $15.44
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 8 Mins: 28 Seconds: 37

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Long Weekend

That's really awesome, truly.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/8/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 40
Amount Saved: $15.44
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 8 Mins: 29 Seconds: 13

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Question

Hi, Carlos. Thanks, man. Honestly, that post doesn't really do much for me. I'm not married and I'm not worried about my health. I don't even have a family to worry about me. I haven't talked to any of them in well over a decade. The only thing that motivates me to stop smoking is to improve the quality of my life. I think it is a filthy thing to do that does not fit the self-image I have of myself. I was actually thinking about that today. I drove by a car that had a NIN bumper sticker. It was really interesting to me, because I live in Kentucky and that is something you just do not see every day (they are hard stickers to find). I used to have one when I was a teenager. In case you don't know, NIN is short for Nine Inch Nails (a band). Well, when I was younger, I was deeply into their music; a very depressed kid, going against the grain of society, and smoking for me was partly about self-image (a statement that I could do what I wanted, rebellious, whatever). When I saw that bumper sticker, I realized that at one time, that bumper sticker could have "defined me" (who I was and what I was all about) but that it no longer applied, that it didn't even come close. I'm a different person than I was back then. Smoking just isn't for me any more, just like NIN isn't.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/8/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 40
Amount Saved: $15.44
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 8 Mins: 33 Seconds: 40

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Question

Well it is like the book says, we know it is bad for our health but that never makes us stop. I think that book is very insightful. It has a way of making you realize that smoking has zero positive gains. It also tries to convince you not to worry and just quit, that it is not difficult. I still think the book could use some work in that regard. I think it stops short there. Yeah, it really is easy in many ways. Withdrawal pangs really are not painful. They are not even strong. All they do is create a feeling and emotions are something I've had plenty of experience dealing with. When you have a bad feeling, the best thing Ÿou can do is just acknowlege it and sit with it till it passes, or acknowlege it and then move on. The book never really addresses that very well. It is too bad. I think it would be even more effective if it really took the time to talk about what happens after that final cigarette. Anyway I am very glad you recommended the book. I really love how it addresses the psychology of smokers. I found it very enlightening. As for Trent Reznor, I am glad you know who he is. I will be a fan for life, but not like I was when I was a teen. I mostly listen to electronica and some other bands, typically from the UK like Portishead and Polly Scattergood. I also love Bjork but she is from Iceland. I really don't know anyyhing about Johnny Cash. I always thought he was a lot like Elvis? They are from the same generation, are they not? The only bands from before my time I like are ABBA (especially songs of theirs that were never famous), Pink Floyd, and Bob Dylan. :-)
My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/8/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 3
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $23.16
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 9 Mins: 10 Seconds: 14

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Starting Over

Hi, everyone!

Since my last quit, I slipped again, but I picked myself back up and quit - what I hope will be my final quit - on Sunday at 7:00pm. It has been 2 days, 19 hours, 59 minutes, and 19 seconds since my last cigarette - lol. I think the fact that I know this is bad - it's like I'm romancing cigarettes!

Anyway, I'm just writing because it has been anything but easy these past two days. The first day wasn't so bad. Yesterday for about five hours I really had to keep myself together. Today has been the hardest. For a minute there, I actually thought I would break down and buy some smokes.

I did have to go to the store for a few things but I did not even entertain the idea of buying cigs, so I think that's probably a really good sign - a sign that I really want this to be my final quit. I want this one to last. I do think I know why this time is tougher - because I don't find "almost 3 days smoke-free" exciting like I did before - because I've already been here, twice. I can't get excited over something I've done and failed it previously. I'm hoping when I get to 5d 16h that perhaps my mentality will change, but I realize I can't just wait for that time to come, so I've been trying to focus my thoughts appropriately.

I just needed to post though because I really don't want to mess this up. I can honestly say I don't want a cigarette. I keep telling myself that my brain needs to get with the program and stop sending out signals for a smoke because I'm done. Very little seems to be helping today though. Any suggestions?

-Samuel

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 3
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 60
Amount Saved: $23.16
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 10 Mins: 53 Seconds: 27

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Starting Over

Still here. 23 hours away from where I failed last time. Finally. I plan to spend tomorrow somewhere pretty nice, and Sunday I start playing a new mmorpg called Aion. That will help keep me distracted. 24 hours from now I'll feel like I'm making progress again, not that today isn't just as important. :-)

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 5
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 100
Amount Saved: $20.55
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 16 Mins: 48 Seconds: 15

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Starting Over

I'm very happy to announce that I am 7d, 2h smober. :-)

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 7
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 140
Amount Saved: $28.77
Life Gained:
Days: 0 Hrs: 23 Mins: 39 Seconds: 54

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Starting Over

My picture is completely unrelated to smoking. I think these names are rather silly. For me, the first week was not that difficult. Honestly, today has been more challenging than any day previous, at least for a few hours anyway. I've given up the belief however that one or two weeks after stopping I'm just going to magically be fine. I smoked for sixteen years. That's 832 weeks. Out of 832 weeks, I've spent one of them smoke-free. That's a drop in the ocean. It would be foolish to think of it any other way.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 8
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 160
Amount Saved: $32.88
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 2 Mins: 18 Seconds: 44

14 years ago 0 +0 / -0 29

Starting Over

Orinoco, you honestly just stopped me from making a pretty big mistake. I have wanted to smoke so bad since I woke up today. I don't know why. I keep telling myself, how can today be worse than yesterday or the first day? It doesn't seem very logical to me. It should be getting easier, you know. It helps to know that the second week was pretty hard for you also. How are you feeling now? Anyway, I decided to get on here before I did anything rash. It's been 8d 18h. I'm sick of counting, lol.

Carlos, I've been hiking pretty much every day. I know I'm not giving anything up. I've been telling myself that. Actually, I haven't really needed to tell myself that. I just know it. I think the problem I'm having is that I haven't had any cravings to smoke. They are just random thoughts and they are very easy to dismiss. So, I really haven't been fighting this. It's been pretty "easy." In the past 24 hours, that's changed though. It can't possibly be a physical thing though. It's been too long for that. It's something else, something mental/emotional.

This sucks. I can tell I am teetering on the edge of another failure right now. Any excuse will do! I've got one already lined up. "I made it further than last time, so I'm making progress." It actually makes me laugh seeing myself writing that. It is total addict talk. It's so clear to me that I do not want to smoke. I wish I understood why I am suddenly being overwhelmed with the "desire" to do something I don't want to do. This is why I have not been overly excited. I think I really question my ability to be able to follow through with this.

My Milage:

My Quit Date: 9/13/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 9
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 180
Amount Saved: $36.99
Life Gained:
Days: 1 Hrs: 4 Mins: 38 Seconds: 48

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