Hey everyone especially Dodds (I made a post asking if you were ok since we didn't hear back from you, glad to know you are still here). AA was a great step in the right direction. I did have a slip when I had some VERY unpleasant things to deal with with a disgruntled ex boyfriend and his over protective mother. It was so very stressful that I instantly reached for the bottle out of habit. I was shaking and felt like throwing up and knew the quick fix would be a drink or two. Interestingly though during unpacking I found the big blue AA book. I know where my triggers are and I know what sets me off. i continue to go to AA and not hold it against myself that I slipped cause after all 1 day of drinking is progress compared to 7 days a week so I'll keep at it. It's not gonna take 1 or 2 or 3 weeks to fix what I've had as a habit for almost 20 years. Talking to other women like me at women;s AA really helps. I put my BF to bed tonight who was completely hammered and thought " is this what I'm like?, this is really ugly". He's a very nice person as most of us drunks are before we get to drinking. He just drank far too much and couldn't understand that it was time for him to go to bed but kept coming out of the bedroom confused and trying to drink more. He'll have a terrible hangover tomorrow and most likely won't remember that I wrestled him into bed kicking and screaming pouring his drink down the drain. I'm going to bed sober, reading a book and waking up without a headache. Again, even though I slipped I am happy with my progress and will continue to build on it.