Hello Wastedtime!
Welcome back! I did miss seeing you around here. I was hoping you were doing ok. Well, here, I'll tell you this. I drand 2 glasses of champagne on New Year's Eve, and yesterday I had 1/2 a glass of wine. Both times I felt HORRIBLE the next day. Shame, guilt, and my daughter telling me GREAT JOB, MOM, NOW YOU HAVE TO START ALL OVER AGAIN! lol... she is my big smack of reality.
The truth is... we are all flawed.... and it is what it is.... I am very flawed, and I want to go back to failing to moderate as I did many times, because with time we forget what drinking was like... so it's easier to have that desire to drink return. Other than feeling like the alcohol made my anxiety medicine completely useless, I was ok drinking my little slip up, and I don't feel the desire to drink again. I'm sure that could change tomorrow, or later on today, let's be honest.
Community and support are great. I, too, have been off here, and look what I did... drank...
Happy New Year, and Happy New Goals. You've got this. And we're here for you.