Marylizy, how are you doing? Hanging in there?
BP, have you ever heard of RLS, or Restless Leg Syndrome? It runs in my family and I've had it bad since my second pregnancy. SSRI's can make it worse. I was near suicide after my daughter was born, because the RLS literally hadn't allowed me to sleep more than an hour at a time for almost six months. You might google RLS (also called Ekbom's Disease), or talk to your doctor about it, because it can seriously disrupt sleep and cause depression. There are medications for it that are fully compatible with antidepressants, and it is astounding how much of a difference it can make in your life, if you can sleep peacefully. Let me know if you'd like to know more, because I'm the RLS queen. (And pramipexole has changed my life....)
I didn't end up having drinks with my friend over lunch after all, but this evening I sat and watched the sunset with my husband and my cousin, with two servings of a really nice red wine. We were all happy and positive, and we put the bottle away with about 1/3 of it left. Unthinkable! I'm not sure we've ever done that before. I mean, honestly? To not finish the bottle when there's that little left. I'm not sure I could have done it by myself, but it happened very naturally.
Anyway, starting from this moment I plan to remain completely sober for seven days. Right now, honestly, I feel ambivalent about it. Why would I possibly want to go seven whole days without a nice wine buzz like I had tonight? The monster is so very pretty today, I have to remind myself how nasty she can be...
I am going on a road trip with my two kids starting in the morning, and I will do my best not to drink with the various friends I'll be staying with on the way. One of my friends is into single-malt whisky, which I think I can easily avoid. Another likes wine, but she's more into the sweet wines, which I don't like much. If I can just focus on my Moga goal -- ONE WEEK -- I think I can do it. I certainly don't want to blow it on alcohol that I don't even like very much. I'll check in on my Mogas when I can, but it might be spotty. Who else is starting this tomorrow? It's only a week - can we do it? Can we help each other through this?