I just joined this support group, and I'm very new to this. A couple of hours ago, I initially posted to an already-existing thread, but I realize I should have started my own thread, so I'm starting over.

And yes, I am starting over. I am almost fifty years old; I'm healthy, athletic, happy, successful -- and I have two young children who are now getting old enough to pay attention to how much I drink. I have spent the past ten years worrying about how much I drink, and the past two years actively (and utterly ineffectively) trying to cut down. I am a successful professional, and my drinking has never affected my family / social / or professional life. I've been taking Naltrexone for the past two years, and it has proven overall unsuccessful for me. I attended one AA meeting, but that is totally not my style. My husband of sixteen years, who is the most wonderful man in the world, is my favorite and primary drinking buddy. We both enjoy ourselves so much over a glass (or three) of fine wine several times a week. We have always loved going out on dates, or staying home and watching the sunset, going to parties together, and all of the other fabulous romantic things people do with a glass of wine in hand. At least three or four times within the past two months, I have driven while under the influence, and that's not unusual. Twice with my kids in the car. One of those times I know I was fully intoxicated. I'm really, really good at hiding it, even from myself.

My husband is very supportive of my decision to quit drinking, but we've been through this scenario several times over the past few years. He's just not strong enough to resist me when I convince him that THIS time I can handle just one drink and it won't start escalating. THIS time, let's keep alcohol out of the house, and I'll only drink when we're out on a date together. THIS time, I'll stick to red wine only, which will surely keep me from drinking too much. THIS time, I'll let him be my babysitter, and I'll stop whenever he tells me to. This morning I told him that I'm really going to quit for good, and he agreed to do whatever it takes. I'm already rehearsing ways to talk him out of it.

I have never tried an online support group before. I am also considering talking to my doctor about disulfiram. I'm not sure I can do this.....