First of all, thank you for the opportunity to give and receive the critical information we all need to succeed on this long journey to absolute sobriety. There are many wake up calls associated with drugs and alcohol. Please accept one.
I am 33 years old, a Las Vegas native, and an alcoholic. The drinking began when I was 15 years old. When I say it began, I mean on a regular daily basis 18 years ago. I was in high school and I met a beautiful girl that I ended up dating for one year. At the time I was experimenting with weed and alcohol everyday. I never finished high school but got my GED a year later. Anyway, during that year I had gotten her pregnant and she had an abortion because she decided we were to young for that. Later I found out that she didn't want the kid because of my drinking problem. Wow. I had no clue. This was a wake up call but guess what - didn't answer the call.
After that broken heart session I met my true love at age 20. I was drinking all along everyday the last few years and went out one night to a club to meet my future wife Candace. She was beautiful beyond belief. She stayed the night on the first night we met but didn't do the nasty. She just moved into her new apartment and gave me her number but the number was wrong! I sat on that phone and dialed every number associated with the one she gave me and Finally got ahold of her. "I cracked the code!" We joked about that many times during our 7 year relationship. We ended up having 2 kids together. My daughter was born Aug.2001 and my son in Dec.2002. I had the perfect life- bought a house, had kids, a wife, and a good electrician job. After 7 years we decided to split up. I'll tell ya something...I was drinking heavy just about everyday we were together and I thought it was OK. I mean she drank once in a while so whats the big deal? She actually controlled her drinking and I was far from. I was to the point to where I would want to puke every morning and I took Xanax (anti-depression pills) to feel better from the hangover. It was getting bad and it progressed to where we got so aggrivated with each other and I moved out. She got remarried the next year. I still regret my actions to this day. This was a wake up call but guess what - didn't answer the call.
In 2005 I met another love of my life but didn't know it till it was too late. Her name was Andrea, a nextdoor neighbor I played with at 10 years old. She found me on Myspace. We dated for over 3 years and had great times. She had a son from a previous marriage (same age as my daughter) and we made it work. Again I drank everyday and thought it would be ok. I moved out early of 2009. This was a wake up call but guess what - didn't answer the call.
I have a few heart breaks and think about them every day. I was making $80,000+ last year. I went from THAT to almost a homeless situation. In 2005 I started a handyman business here in vegas. I eventually had an account with a bank that payed very well remodeling houses. I moved to California to continue my work but my drink followed me. I lived the good life for a few months until the company noticed my drinking problem. I was cut off along with 12 workers under me. This was a wake up call but guess what - didn't answer the call.
Now I am living with a friend in a studio apartment. I am looking for work everyday, I have no vehicle, but I'm concentrating on being sober. I have 16 days and hope to control myself for all time ahead. I will post details in the near future.
It's miserable to feel alone and depressed but it gets better everyday, I promise!
