Thanks Everybody for your responses!
Funny thing: I'm not really a shy person in my life. But I'm fiercely independent, ya know. It's always been hard for me to ask for help. And I have a high threshhold for pain. I was the kid who listened to my football coach in High School when he'd say "walk it off", and I would...only to find out the next day that a bone in my foot was fractured!
But things are changing. I'm seeing a shrink. Which is, for some stupid reason that nobody can name, a big no-no in my family. I guess they think that if you seek counseling there must be som'm wrong with ya. Well I've been smoking at least a pack a day since I was 15 years old; something IS wrong. And I've use cigarettes to cope/escape/deal/whatever. I've found that most of the times I would light up were due to anxiety. And using Chantix has helped me to get rid of the chemical/physical cravings for the most part...Now it's just me and my Anxiety. I call it the Anxiety Monster, and I will slay it! :eg: And I know that when I'm having my worst cravings or when I'm feeling a desperate need for a smoke: it means that the Anxiety Monster (the addiction) is getting more and more desperate. It's losing and grasping at straws and doing anything possible to stay in the game.
It makes it fun, like Nance was saying. :)
Anyway, posting is good. It's cathartic to type this stuff, knowing that others will read it. And it's refreshing to know that I have help, AND THAT IT's OKAY TO GET HELP!!
--Shakes
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/5/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 31
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 631
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $279
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 47
