And I did it to myself.
I have been feeling a bit more anxious lately. Basically, it's the cycle. I had a couple mini attacks since last week, and they just sorta came on whether I was not breathing correctly or just that I was anxious.
So, I was in a large chain heath food store today. I walked in thinking of possibly having a panic attack while in the back of the store. I was OK for a bit. I then picked up a few items and then started to feel a bit trapped. I get to the checkout and I started to have a lot of anxiety about whether I could enter my debit pin before having an attack. So I told the cashier I forgot my card in the truck. She said OK, so I went out to my car and took half a valium. That was the real reason I had to go out to my truck. I went back in and remembered we needed walnuts. So I paid and then was on my way. But I did have a basic panic attack where you get all tingly in the head, etc. Same stuff as always.
This all happened because of me. Like I have done so many times before.
So now that I know all this, I will now deal with the after affects, which sometimes include depression and dissociation. I am not saying these symptoms will happen, but having an attack feels like a defeat, but just like baseball, there's always another game the next night. I immediately have these fears once I begin to feel myself having the reaction.
Anyway, just felt like sharing my silly personal story. Had I taken my med before going into the store, I probably would not have had the same result.
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