Hi Jenniferlee,
I started here in April...after having anxiety/panic for over 20 years I'd had enough, and was willing to do anything to improve my life. Finding this program has been like a miracle for me...esp. learning the the 10 questions...it took a while, but it just came together over the past few months. I hardly have any negative thoughts now,and when I do I automatically challenge them and presto! Gone! So that vicious cycle is stopped...meaning no panic! Ya!
I have children too, but they are 18 and 21...so I, like you, used to worry all the time about getting sick, or dying and leaving them...but you know what I discovered?
I found out that I "needed" to worry..there would always be something else to keep me anxious about... so when my oldest was 20ish, thats when I started to get even worse anxiety...the "what ifs?" ate me up.
Its good that you are here getting help... you don't have to go it alone anymore, we are all here for the same reason. I'm sure we all understand what you are saying.
Just to be clear, I do take a SSRI...Celexa, 20 mgs daily. I started on it at the same time..I believe it helped me be able to calm down enough to really concentrate on the CBT program. I hope not to have to be on it forever...who knows though?
Please post as much as you want ...and good luck with the program!
Juanita