hey everyone,

thankyou so much for all the advice and making me feel less alone. jhori we dont get programs like that in england-people are very unsupportive around here even medical staff!!

i do need to make some goals and need something to get me out of depression but that is definately easier said than done.i have spoken to many freinds about things and they have given me some good advice- i am finding it extremly difficult at the moment with my hormones up and down, sickness etc!!!but maybe this is something to keep my mind pre-occupied and get me over these panic attacks?? today hasnt been to bad but i have been out which i am finding easier. 

can anyone make suggestions of any goals i can make??

i think i am just going to go for a meal for my birthday something quite. thanks for all listening and being so supportive it means so much

xx

ok right, yestersay i found out im pregnant!! (quite a shock to say the least). i am on the pill, also need hospital treatment well coal cogulation for pre cancerous cells, i feel very scared and alone my partner was not very helpful!!

i dont no what to do but 1 thing im surprised about i didnt have a PA!!!

xx

also i would just like to leave my daughter a few things like have a stable up bringing and not have to struggle like me but that seems hopless.

i do write things down now and yes it does help because when it is written down it you dont worry about it so much whether it is frustrating thoughts or bills, i would suggest it to anyone who has alot on there mind. thanku for all your suggestions by the way. its horrible when you feel so alone. also CM no offence taken, i think its good to all have our own posts for a rant.haha. i just didnt think at the time when i was so down and depressed and upset.but hey its ok now.

xx

hey

ok this is my post to vent out all my stress and frustration, i am trying relaxation techniques and also more exercise, and hot stone therapy as it is meant to be good for anxiety and depression along with acheing muscles etc.

i am struggling at the moment and i doont think it helps that it is winter and the credit crunch. i thought i was getting better as now i can drink fizzy drinks but my mental state has got worse. i think i need things to keep myself occupied, but nothing seems to interest me anymore, it all seems a waste of time,hopeless. i feel down alot and sick with a lump in my throat and crying.its my birthday sat and people want to celebrate it but i just want to ignore that it is my birthday but people cant understand that?am i weird to feel this way?

any suggestions?anyone got over this?

xx