Hi, Kat. Congratulations on 3 smoke-free weeks.
Often people view past the past as a predictor of the future. How many times have you heard someone say "I always ...", or "I can never ...", or "Every time I try .... such and such happens"? It is easy to talk ourselves into patterns; usually patterns of failure are easier than patterns of success. Sometimes I wonder if we are just wired that way. Many will argue that point, but it really is moot.
You lost your last quit around the 1 month mark. A lot of quitters go through challenges around that time. I think it's because the excitement of the quit, the newness, has worn off. Now you're tired, emotionally, mentally, physically, and spritually. Just worn out. And Ol' Nic rears his ugly, opportunistic head. Whenever that happens, grab the closest safety line you can and hang on for all you are worth because it does pass. A few days, a week perhaps, but it does pass and you emerge intact.
Don't view the point of prior failure as a wall or a rough spot or a danger. It isn't. It is simply a point in time to get beyond. Nothing more, nothing less. If Ol' Nic strikes, then he strikes. The old demon gets weaker every time you whup him, so just whup him one more time. :)
You're doing great, Kat. Keep up the good quit.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 539
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,799
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2048.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 100 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 22
