Hi All
My name is Catherine and today I go back to day 1 after 79 days smoke free. I used to be part of another forum but it appears to have disappeared in the last month or so.
Last night I had 3 cigarettes, whilst having far too much to drink. Since I quit in January I have also tried to avoid triggering situations, the top of the list is going out drinking with work, so I basically haven't had a social life for the last 3 months.
I quit with the aid of patches, I have gone through the entire program and my last paycheck was on Saturday. On my 3rd nicotine free day I smoked.
I'm so angry with myself, I can't even make excuses, yes I was drunk, but I wanted one. I forgot the most important things in this journey, I forgot my "not one puff" mantra, and I forgot that I am an addict. I forgot that I am addicted to a substance and that I wasn't ready to be out with smokers drinking. I'm so angry.
Do I have to reset my app counters to 0? Do I have to start all over again?
It's so depressing. It is 4am, I have woken up because I always do when I've been drinking too much, I am hungover which I haven't been for months, and my mouth tastes like an ashtray. I'm so disappointed.
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$425,765.63
Amount Saved
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Days: 3694
Hours: 11
Minutes: 19
Seconds: 50
Life Gained
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45415
Smoke Free Days
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681,225
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