I think I thought, well it is what i make of it. I am not going to wake up some day in the future and it is going to be great. this is it. This is all there is. This is what not smoking is like.
At three months i would say i was probably the same. Maybe I didnt think about it so much - if at all. But the temptation was always there and it would pop into my head. I only wanted ONE.
One is too many and a million is never enough. Tutti I am looking at your stats. Wow you smoked more than me! Well done to you. Isnt it a relief in some ways NOT to smoke. I used to smoke as soon as I got out of bed, and its a relief not to do that anymore.
Someone said to me in work, i quit smoking for 23 years now, and sometimes i could murder a cigarette, but I know if I do - then that would be it. Back to square one. Ages ago if someone had said that to me, I would have gone straight to the shops and bought a packet. There is no way that I wanted to be craving for 23 years. I dont think its like that. A lot of it is mental, first few days are physical and pscyhological.
For those that have just quit and maybe quit for the first time, please dont be put off by this, as maybe i dealt with the mental stuff of it, as I was off the nicotine until 5 months ago. I do realise when I very first quit it was hell, i thought i was going to go completely mental i felt like my head was going to explode. But i do now feel that perhaps as I am now back at day 5 - that i had put myself through that hell and made it far harder for myself by glorifying the cigarette and giving it more power than it deserved (it deserves none) replace it with wonderful things and celebrate your life.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/18/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 5
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 128
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �37.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 53 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41
