Jayhawk, I hear you and I feel for you too. Everyone is right, the depression is part of quitting. I'm feeling a lot of that right now myself as I wind down Day 4 of my quit.
I mean, when you were anxious you lit up, nervous you lit up, bored you lit up, angry you lit up, had a drink you lit up, coffee you lit up, you lit up after a good meal, lit up while driving,lit up while doing book work or at the computer, etc. Man, it's probably easier to list when you did NOT light up. Mind you, I'm going by my own history and what many other former smokers have said.
Now we've given up that constant companion so naturally, we're going to feel like something real special is missing in our lives. You'll feel the loss for a while, I know I will too and that makes us feel depressed. We have to keep telling ourselves that the feeling of depression and "loss" will pass and we have to tell ourselves that we haven't lost a thing but we stand everything to gain.
I swear, I'd never thought about that feeling of "loss" causing me to feel depressed until I came to this site and then read up on it. It adds up and it sure stands to reason. I smoked for 30 years and those things were a daily part of my life.
This depression will pass. I know it will because every time I come to this site, post how I'm feeling, and read the other posts from people who've been through this, I feel stronger.
Hang in there. Okay?
Tutti
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/18/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 257
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $11.16
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44