Hello to everyone! My name is Michelle, and I live in Humble Texas.. a northeast burb of Houston. I am 34, gonna be 35 in early march. I have 3 kids, 2 of which I am a single mom to. I have 2 daughters with me (17 and 12), and my almost 14 year old son moved in with his dad last August.
I have been a 20 a day smoker for the last 23 years. I started smoking when I was 12 to be "cool" (shakes head - stupid, I know) and have been smoking every since. I am scared to death of quitting but even more scared to stay a smoker. Now that I have made the decision and choice to quit, every single cigarette I light up brings guilt... that's a good thing, it will make it all the much easier when I put out that last cigarette. I am going to have a long journey ahead of me, as most of the people I know in my personal life - smoke. When I am at work, it will not be as tough, because I am only 1 of 4 smokers at this location of about 30 people. I have alot of support here at work amongst the non-smokers.
I am working the program, tracking every cigarette I smoke (most of them are due to boredom more than anything), I have made my plan for handling cravings and triggers and have pledged my commitment. Right now I am taking the small steps of changing when I smoke. Once I began tracking my smoking, it is clear that I have myself on a very set smoking schedule... even at home. I've decided to try and quit without any NRT at first, and see how it goes. My health insurance doesn't cover prescription help such as Chantix or Zyban, but if needed, I will enlist the help of gum or lozenges.
I've set my date, and told everyone that I know what the date is (my kids are estatic about my quitting), and I have asked everyone to please excuse and forgive me if once I quit I become moody for a while.
I have been reading here everyday since I joined, as much as I can, and everyone is very motivating to me. I feel a sense of calm and have a stronger "I can do it attitude" just from reading. I want to thank y'all for having this site, and thank everyone who is a member and all that post. This site is going to be my safe haven.
Take care and see y'all on the boards as much as I can.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/5/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -11
[B]Cigarettes Not
-
Quit Meter
$280,986.75
Amount Saved
-
Quit Meter
Days: 5353
Hours: 17
Minutes: 47
Seconds: 23
Life Gained
-
Quit Meter
45412
Smoke Free Days
-
Quit Meter
681,180
Cigarettes Not Smoked
