Brenda, are you on NRT's?
Dont be so hard on yourself. Your body & soul are adjusting to the huge change you have made.
I have read over and over that many people feel as though they are greiving the loss of a loved one.
I think its your subconcious tricking you into taking that first puff, finding reasons why you should start again...... kind of like a child in the throws of a tantrum. . . . they ask, you say no, they beg, you say NO, they start screaming, you say NO and start to feel anxious, they start throwing things around, you still say NO you just want this child to stop and contemplate on giving them what they want but strongly you say NO..... Eventually they stop, and they will try a few more times after that but they realize that they will not be rewarded for bad behaviour (not saying you are behaving badly lol)
This is only my thoughts on it coz a couple of days ago i was feeling the same. My mind was trying to convnice me that its not the right time to quit, and i was making up all these excuses. I started crying for no apparent reason.... and i was thinking what the heck!! then i realized what was happening. My subconcious was throwing a tantrum trying to tell me i couldnt do it.... im weak... well im not weak and im determined to say NO!
Lol i hope you understand what im trying to say!
Perhaps your husband is going through the same emotions but doesnt want to admit it.... (some men are like that) I think he truely does understand everything you are going through and just wishes deep down he could be like you. Just break down.
Do what you feel necessary to get you through. If you cry, you cry, you yell you yell... while you are doing these things, you're not smoking :)
Be strong Brenda, it will pass
:) Celeste
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/11/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 95
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $40.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 12 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52
