Thanks everyone for welcoming me into the group. I have done some of the excersises and so it opened my eyes up to what i need to do. However, i think i am still going to struggle as i am sure you all have. I know that with me it's more of a habbit. I guess, but i know i do have "certain" times when i smoke, and this morning i tried the let's not smoke one as soon as your eyes open thing, and i held off for about 5 mins. or so...so that's good. And when i'm at work, i really always wait about 1-2-3 hours in between smokes, because i will get busy with customers, which is a good thing, but when i get home in the evening that's when i do most of my smoking.....and the weekends. So, i am going to have to start finding something else to do during the evenigs.....This is sad to say, but my father is on oxygen right now, and will be never be away from it. He has had a heart attack, stroke, lung cancer, and now emphysema....he struggles for every breath he takes...he is 71 yrs old...and had smoked since he was 12. He quit right before he had the heart attack....then continued to smoke cigars....claiming all the while that he didn't inhale it...ha i knew he did...anyway his dad died of emphysema also, and i know i probably will too, if i don't quit...sadly he watched his father die, and i will watch mine die too of smoking, yet i continue to kill myself with each cigarette...why do we do this?????? I am so disgusted, but can't seem to make myself stop....anyway, sorry this is so long. I will try to post everyday, but not the weekends b/c i don't have a computer at home....Thanks everyone again, and hopefully i will do you proud!!!!!!!!!
