Well I slept till about 230pm today, I just couldn't get up and face the day, the news at work was bugging me and I just had a rough time... I forced myself in the shower and out for errands. I REALLY wanted a cig... was sooo depressed... but I got the patch on quick. I am lucky in that the patch takes away my cravings 90%! I find it hard to go through weekends with family home when I am in a fresh quit... I like to suffer in silence! I enjoy being alone in the house on a normal day, so as a newly quit, I do REALLY like to be alone.
I have it a bit hard as the family thought I am quit from my original quit in AUG, I snuck from Dec 24 till Apr 5th!! So they think I am over the hard part and really I am on my own with that. I think its better anyway, because they can't use that excuse anymore... my moods are my moods ya know.
I couldn't smoke today, even as I was soooo upset about work and all, I just KNEW if I did I would have 2 reason to be miserable instead on 1 and that just wasn't gonna be good for me.
I know there are lots of tears coming, I can feel myself getting ready to scream when I am in that "place"... sooner or later I will let loose I am sure. But I gotta get through it- FOR ME!!
Thanks all!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 123
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $30
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56
