I am rollong over 238 days moving past 34 weeks.
Back from a visit to my Mom, celebrating my 50th birthday and revisiting the places of my youth where I learned to smoke.
This has been an amazing and wonderful journey. Nothing easy about it. I have had to stay firmly with my commitment to give myself a year of being free from smoke. I will never go back, this knowledge is new and very, very thrilling. I smell smoke on others and find it vial. I smell fresh smoke wafting through the air, I like the smell, I see the person walk along a few steps and start to cough or choke and I rejoice that I no longer smoke. I can hug people and not feel guilty that I smell repulsive. I can swim for eons and not feel winded. I love the new life I have given myself.
My partner of 32 years is proud and celebrates constantly this new found smoke free person sharing a journey of life. We revel in being able to travel together. My friends are surprised and sometimes shocked when they see that I no longer need to rush outside to take a smoking break. I can get through a whole evening without breaking away. Phillip, the constant smoker is no longer smoking and is instead swimming and dreaming of competing in meets in Paris and San Francisco. Phillip the constant cook, always finding something new to eat and enjoy, actually savouring and enjoying the fruits of his labour. Yes I eat all those pies and love my new found ability to taste and relish the flavour.
Yes, Phillip the consumate cynic is enjoying life. Phillip the resolute rebel is saying come on join in, quit smoking, the freedom is exhilarating and the sense of achievement and accomplishement is like nothing that life has given me so far.
I am so thrilled that I have moved so deeply into the new found freedom, the lack of bondage to the addiction, my life will never be the same and the future is more and more full and rich with life.
Thanks for being with me. Thanks for sharing in these 34 weeks and sharing with me your adventures and your experiences of stepping through the looking glass and into a newfound life of freedom and liberty. Come celebrate with me as I roll the clock on 8 months. October 17th a day of glory!
:)
Phillip
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[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006
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