A growing concept of Higher Power
(Narcotics Anonymous Basic Text, p.278)
In a lifelong process of coming to believe, our understanding of Higher Power will change. The understanding we might have when we begin our recovery may be that of a mean, grumpy, old man or spirit, who sits on a throne and constantly passes judgment as we wander through our lives. Some people's Higher Power may be Patsy Cline; others, Bob Marley. To many, the sky, trees, and/or water may be it. "The only suggested guidelines are that this Power be loving, caring, and greater than ourselves. We don't have to be religious to accept this idea. The point is that we open our minds to believe." (pg. 24)
It may not occur to us that HP's reach can limited to what is just and good, and that HP realizes that many of us need time to get to know him/her. Sometimes only with years of recovery do we develop an understanding of a loving Higher Power who travels with us and, in a sense, becomes our drug.
Our initial understanding of a Power greater than ourselves will most likely be limited. That Power will keep us clean but, we may think, nothing more. We may hesitate to pray because we have placed conditions on what we will ask our Higher Power to do for us. "Oh, this stuff is so awful, even Higher Power couldn't do anything," we might say, or "Higher Power's got a lot of people to take care of. There's no time for me!'
But, as we grow in recovery, so will our understanding. We'll begin to see that the only limits to Higher Power's love and grace are those we impose by refusing to step out of the way. The loving Higher Power we come to believe in has an infinite capacity for love, care, and compassion, and the power and love we find in our belief is shared by nearly every recovering addict around the world and, therefore, it's a source of fellowship.
Just for Today: The Higher Power I am coming to understand has a limitless capacity for love and care. I will trust that my HP is bigger than any problem I may have.
My Milage:My Quit Date: 5/1/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 146
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 4,088
Amount Saved: $1,584.10
Life Gained:Days: 16
Hrs: 0
Mins: 36
Seconds: 3