Danger zone. That is where I feel I am. I have lost my zest for my quit. I don�t want to smoke and I want to smoke. I am in what I call the land of nowhere. I have come so far this time. I know in part I am working to hard and not taking breaks like I should. I allowing my life get totally out of control. I am more focused on my kitchen and wanting that done.
I was grouting tile today and thinking, I am going to take a break and have a cig. Then I remembered I don�t smoke anymore. So I kept working.
And the pounds!!! In the beginning of this quit I was doing so well and then the remodel. I will take care of eating right when this is done. OMG I didn�t expect it to go on and on and on. So the sloppy eating is packing the #s on and on.
I had to go to my son�s today and stay there while the furnace man did some work. I sat there going over the reason why I wanted to quit.
Then reminded myself what smoking would do for me. I can smell like an stinking ashtray again, I can cough my head off again, I can spend my hard earned money foolishly again, I can smoke and wish I wasn�t, I can try and find places to smoke, I can watch my watch waiting until it is time to smoke again, I can spend more time outside in the rain and cold, the list goes on.
So if anyone out there have a little extra zest, can I have some of it please. Thanks for the rant.
Keep the Quit
Sparky
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]4/30/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 155
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,550
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $465.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 20 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 25 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0
