Wowee sotaman! That's a lot of stress that you are not smoking to get through. Congratulations!
I, too, was in the AF years ago, so I understand. I can't give you any suggestions about your personal life except to "go with your heart".
However, as for the Chantix/no smoking part... you are doing a great job and don't look back. Get over this bump and the next one will be just a bit smaller.
Read and post, read and post. You can do this!
Nance
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]2/14/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 113
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,390
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $548.05
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 15 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29