Hello Everyone,
Since Tues I have been thinking about smoking. Its only for a moment, and I know why....On Tues I become a Great Grandmother, and I am so excited. Having to use the phone to call family and friends. The phone is a trigger for me, I didn't take my cell phone into the hospital so I had to go to my car to call everyone.....The car was always a trigger for me. So being excited, talking on the phone, and being in the car the thoughts started coming. I found myself looking in the console where I always kept my cigarettes but all I saw was gum, hard candy, and oh yes, a straw. That is when I said "I don't smoke anymore". But it has been this way for 4 days now. I don't understand what is happening. I know that I won't smoke but WHY NOW???
What I am thinking is I have not been through a situation like this and I know that it will pass. I have been staying busy doing my deep breathing, something I haven't had to do for a long time. I know that it is just a thought, and not a craving. But it is very unnerving, as I was driving home I found myself looking at the prices of cigarettes along the road. That alone should scare me.
You would think after I had been blessed with such a perfect Great Grandson, smoking would be the last thing I would think of... I know I can't leave the situation, because I will be staying with my Granddaughter for two weeks, and the phone is always ringing, and I will be in my car more that usual. :8o: Thank God their home is a non-smoking home.
I did reward myself last night, I called my best friend and we had a lovely dinner. She has never smoked and has no idea what I am talking about. But it did take my mind off of smoking for two hours. :)
Do any of you have any other suggestions??? I know that I won't smoke, but I guess I'm just scared.
Sunshine
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/7/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 405
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,896
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1417.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 59 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 58
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$229,918.50
Amount Saved
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Days: 6396
Hours: 10
Minutes: 36
Seconds: 30
Life Gained
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45416
Smoke Free Days
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681,240
Cigarettes Not Smoked
