Hi there and welcome to the group. From one who has been fighting the battle for a lifetime, it is so worth the effort! Work the program and if you can, try to seek out a therapist who you like and, combined, you will find that the fog will lift and your thoughts will be more positive enabling you to live a happier and more fulfilled life. There are many bumps in the road, but together, we can get over them together. You are a strong, brave individual!