I am new here, just signed up.I've been suffering from depression for the last 2 years. I am very frustrated and feel as if there is no one to help me. I've been to 3 therapists, a psychiatrist and have tried 4 anti depressants. I am miserable and don't really know what else to do to help myself.
After my miserable experiences with the side effects of anti depressants, I've started seeing a more holistic doctor. He has a PhD in psych and is a MD. He has me on various amino acids and some hormones. I know this is non-traditional medicine, but I thought it's worth a try. Almost 2 years of the traditional approach has not worked.
Many things happened in a row that led me to this point:
I married a Marine
I quit my job and moved to Japan
My husband left a few weeks later for Iraq
I was with my grandfather when he died
I had 2 ruptured ectopic pregnancies and lost both fallopian tubes. Can no longer have children without in vitro. I nearly died during the 1st one. The second was 8 weeks later
I am 41 and the clock keeps ticking
Moved back to the states 2 weeks after 2nd lost pregnancy
Bought a very expensive condo in CA
My husband was gone most of the 1st year and a half that we were back in the US
I used to be capable, dynamic, kind, fun, smart and adventerous.
I am now sad, hopeless, helpless and making my husbands life miserable.
I think I was a very joyful person before. I traveled a lot, have a wonderful family and a ton of friends. I now am lonely even when surrounded by people. I can't picture the future being any better than this.
I hope this program helps. Thanks for listening.