Does anyone remember that book "Been down so long it looks like up to me"? By Joan Baez's brother (can't remember his name = symptomatic,yes?). Well, I am THERE. I haven't a clue what not being depressed is like. I can remember being sickened/depressed at age 5 (earlier?). I am almost 60 yrs now and I've been on Prozac since it first came on the market in '88/89. I wouldn't dream of trying to live without it. I thank the pharm.Gods for allowing me to chemically block suicidal thoughts most of the time and 'dismiss' casual but diurnal inquietudes. I have accepted, with misery and shame, being part zombie for the last 20 years. I just wanted to say hello and join the club. Thanks for the opportunity.