Dear Snuggles - It's hard waiting for folks to read your posts and get back to you. Try to be patient - this often doesn't seem a very active place. Perhaps everyone is doing he CBT buddies - have you downloaded that? I've had no luck for some reason, but maybe you would find someone to chat with there.
You sound wise beyond your years in wanting to be be content with yourself and find your strength internally rather than totally relying on others to build you up. But do stay in touch with folks who support you. A big mistake I've made is isolating myself from friends. I was too sad and depressed want to be with anyone, but it's hard to re-establish those friends once you have pushed them away.
I think it's always best to try to find a good middle ground; leaning when you need to but always working on finding your own center and good sense of self. Lots of words and sometimes they all sound meaningless. But you are on the right path.
I do think this program is a good one. I've started doing it over again because I really didn't throw myself into it. I got up to Session 7 and starting seeing how good it is but needed to go back and really do the homework, writing it all down, and really doing the work. I think it will pay off.
Much love and good wishes are going out to you from me daily.
