what now...i have been diagnosed as bipolar but suffer more lows then highs. i totally feel like how you described. when im not on meds im paranoid, angry, very untrusting and definant. it feels like the world is against me. im hyper sensitive also. nothing seems clear and i feel like a burden. i feel so sad inside that there are no words to describe it. i feel so hopeless. i cry all the time and most of the time i am not sure why i am crying. there are moments when the silence is so loud that all i want to do is scream but nothing comes out. and the worst thing of all is, i hide it. i tell no one how i feel. i live in a duality not wanting ppl to know that i am feeling so very bad for fear they will just make it worse. worse by saying stupid things like, its just a phase. you'll get over it. things arent so bad. it could be worse. think of all the good things you have in your life. those all seem to trigger more depression. at least for me. are you feeling really badly right now? if so maybe you can just get some of how you are feeling out. im here to listen and i know a handfull of others will also. for me, this site has helped so much because no one judges me. i can say how i feel and not feel guilty about it. i am here to listen if you need to talk. you arent alone. take care.
