Just found the site, and took the survey. I have PTSD from childhood SA by family,neighbors. Recently grandfather passed away, I had to get protection order against my husband for abuse. My anxiety attacks feel like heart attacks. I do a lot of things to avoid them,but nothing really works. I get close to calling ambulance often. I want to die often too so I guess it's not so bad thinking I'm going to die. I go to therapy 2x week,but so far I have too much anxiety to really get anything done.
I live on a little farm with 3 horses,ducks,chickens,geese. I have 4 human children,1 dog and 4 cats. So, that's me! for now..