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12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 542

Thank you Mike. I just logged on to some reading and homework and I saw that you wrote me yesterday, we have had bad storms here for two days so the power was off and on and I just now saw that you posted me. I am doing the program and trying not to focus on anything else, yes its hard but I am trying. I do understand exactly what you mean about the hypocrondria, I have lived it a very long time and would not wish it on anyone. Worrying is very tiring I know. I hope both you and I can get over this or at least decrease it a lot through the program. I hope you feel better very soon and thank you for writing me. Deb.

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 26

Hi Debora.

i deal with the same exact thing all the time. its got to be one of the hardest things that i have ever had to deal with. sometimes i have worried so much that i have made myself throw up. i know thats gross but thats the kind of things it does to people when they worry that much. i was diagnosed with having hypochondria after being diagnosed with having depression and anxiety for the last 12 years. it doesn't really matter whats going on with me. i could have a little bumb anywhere on my body and i think its cancer. if i loose wait i think i have cancer. if my ears start ringing i think i have brain tumors. if i feel unusually tired i think i have cancer. so pretty much all i wind up doing is spending my whole day worrying my self sick about it and looking for natural cures for something i dont even have. i know that the exposure work that we have to do on these things are done a little dif. then the normal exposure work that we do. i dont know if you have looked in the ask an expert page yet, but it talks about how to do it in there. i hope that this helped you a little.

Mike.

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 542

I have scared myself silly about cancer, its even causing chest pain. I am convinced the very worst thing a person could do is go on the computer and google symptoms and illness! It has caused me to plummet down. The reason I did it is to try too "prove to myself" I dont have it and all I did was convince myself that I do! Its so damaging and unproductive what I did, never again!

I think I fear sickness so much is because I know when I get physcially sick I go down emotionally and mentally so badly, and its hard for me to go to doctors because of the agorophobia, doctors do not like too "deal with some nervous nellie" and it shows in their attitude towards me, I must relax and let this go, stress is worse than anything else in the world I think.

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 542

Hi Carmie,

Thank you so much for writing me tonight I so needed to hear from you. That is such a wonderful thing too hear about you're run today! Yea! You must be so proud, I know I am proud of you. You went ran through a place where you use too have panic attacks and made it what a big accomplishment and I am glad you told me about it I felt good and warm when you described it, I am glad it warmed up a little for you. You are really getting well and it gives me hope! What a great run you had.

I have too admit I am very confused and upset about the pain coming back today? I had a pain free day yesterday, no ear pain or pain while swallowing, and now its back with a vengence and its scaring me Carmie, it was SO wonderful to have it go away, I know I am not imagining it because it woke me up from a sound sleep, same thing, horrible pain when swallowing radiating to the ear and when I woke the pain was there without even swallowing which scared me, is it getting worse? I just dont know what happened to let it go away and have it come back, I did cough a few times in the middle of the night I am hoping I just aggravated it a little and tommorow will be better, I am praying for a miracle again, I am so scared to go back to the doctors, it took so much to go before and now I have to worry about a camera down my throat. Not a good thought.

I wish I could just get "throat cancer" out of my mind, its causing me such worry and tension and panic and the more the pain continues the worse the fear gets, I wish I never read about pain in the ear being a symptom of laranx cancer, I pray that I am wrong Carmie, I know I could not take a cancer diagnosis, I would probably have a heart attack on the spot, I have to try and relax, maybe it will go away again, I did thank God a lot last night it went away. Thank you Carmie I am happy you had a good day and a fantastic run! I hope too hear from you soon.

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 373

Hi Debora,

Well I am very sorry to know that the pain is back but I hope you can keep the worry away. You know, when I was in Florida, there were all sorts of warnings about the extremely high pollen levels. I wonder if that is making things worse for you. Do you have allergies? That could cause post-nasal drip and many of the symptoms you are having.

Do you have a fever?

I hope that you have a better night. I hope that you'll focus on thinking positive thoughts and imagining yourself with your health restored. It's going to happen - and hopefully soon. I think it's so important to try to fill your mind with wonderful thoughts of happy things. Have so many of them that there is no room for the negative ones. That is something that really helps me.

I had my first long and happy and worry-free run here in Maine in awhile. We had a warm evening (warm for us - it was near 50). I went for a 5-mile run outside. I ran through the cemetary and that is where I most often used to have panic attacks and I have to stop and turn around. Today I ran all the way through and out to the street on the other side. I was very happy. Just wanted to share a little positive tidbit. I hope you don't mind.

Take care - keep us posted on how your evening goes!

Best,
Carmie

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 542

Hi Everyone,

I hope I did not speak too soon. I was so happy last night about the pain going away in my ear and throat I actually ate a meal without pain and tears in my eyes from the pain. This morning when I woke it was back?! I do not understand it, what did I do wrong? My voice is back a little still raspy and weak but better and that vicious pain upon swallowing went away, when I woke my ear was just throbbing and I have that pain when swallowing again, I just cannot believe it, it was gone! almost completely and now its back, not as severe but still painful, I am doing all my breathing and relaxation exercises not too panic, I cant go back into the throat and ear cancer thoughts again, that would surely drive me batty. I have too stay calm and not freak out.

If its no better by tonight or tommorow I will probably have to go back too urgent care, my husband just wants me to go toe ER and have ALL tests done on the spot, I think he just wants to end this hell and see whats wrong, but I am not strong enough yet to have a camera in my throat, I am just hoping and praying its the end of the infection and it will go away again.

I notice I have been clearing my throat constantly and I think I have post nasal drip, I just hope and pray there is a logical explanation for all this that is not cancer and something less serious. I am trying to hang on, has anyone ever had an earache and a throat sore that went on for two weeks? Please pray that is not serious. Maybe I am dwelling on it too much, I do notice its the worst when I wake up and then kind of subsides a little, if I go to a Doctor I hope he can diagnose it right this time, I dont want to ruin my sons spring break with bad news. I am trying to stay calm now and its hard.

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1853

You bet Debora.

Take your recovery easy and slowly. Be gentle with yourself and take note of the small improvements each day.

... sending you some sunshine!

Vincenza, Health Educator

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 542

Thank you Both,

I am doing my best to remain positive. I am starting to get a little hoarse again trying not too get scared I am just going to try and rest my voice. I am so hoping this continues so I do not have to have a camera in my throat, you can imagine how much terror that was causing me. I keep having too clear my throat constantly which is probably irrating my throat, the pain is still there in the side of throat but less than yesterday, thank God, I so want to believe the healing is beginning, its been my prayer.

I am going to try and walk my dog tonight, I have not walked in days and my dogs are very upset, I was just too weak and sick and tired, I feel my legs aching from NOT walking inactivity is not good either, I am very tired all I want to do is nap, I read once that emotional worry is more exhausting than digging ditches! is that true? Can worrying just wipe out you out?

I so hope as the days go by I get better, I still have too rest my voice I think, I just hope and pray whatever that "thing" in my throat will keep decreasing. Thank you Carmie and Vincenzia, I am far from alright but better, I am going to try too hold on too that. All youre prayers must be working! Thank you and keep them coming, Easter is my favorite holiday and my prayer is too be better by then. thank you so much, looking forward to hearing from you, I am online now.

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 373

Hi Debora!

I am giving you a high five across the internet. You are so strong! The worst is surely behind you. Way to go!

Loved reading your positive post!

Hope you'll follow Vincenza's good advice. Take care and best wishes for a restful evening with much less worry!

Carmie

12 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1853

Hi Debora,

I sensed the relief you feel through reading your post. I'm so glad to hear you are feeling better today. Trust that your body knows how to heal itself. You need to keep focusing on the positive and visualizing your recovery and sense of well-being. I look forward to reading about more positives in your day!

Vincenza, Health Educator

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