Your Welcome and Thank you for standing by me and helping me to find my way from the darkness into the light..The one major thing I have learned from coming here is that not everyone will desert you or turn their back on you..That there are good people in the world that really care and that are willing to help..I am so grateful that I found this site and that you and all the Educators here were and still are, willing to help me find my way..So the one last thing I have to work on is learning how to express my anger in a positive way instead of a self destructive way..This is the missing piece to my journey..I eagerly await this last part of the journey....
Thanks for the info on PTSD. It's unfortuante that veterans services cannot help widows. But I'm very glad you found the program and us to support you!
Don't apologize! Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to read everything you wrote. It has been amazing to witness your journey on the program; thank you for letting me be a part of it. Also, thank you for all the support you have been giving to the members on this site and DC I know you are making a difference.
Thanks for the response and input..I look forward to your help with learning how to manage my anger from the past.
As for the PTSD, the program here has helped me a great deal as it relates to my PTSD..I agree it is important to get extra help with ptsd outside of the program here if possible ..I have a book on ptsd that I am thinking about reading and seeing where it takes me..As for individual therapy I have looked for that but was not able to find a therapist who specializes in ptsd..The Veterans outreach center here where I am living searched for a therapist for me and was not able to locate one. There is no government funding available to help Widows of veterans so they were not able to help me at their outreach center..They are only allowed to help Living Veterans and possibly there families, but the key to obtaining this help is the fact that they have to still be living for a spouse to receive help IE counseling, therapy or the like..They did do there best to find me someone outside of the vet center to help me..The ptsd I suffer with is related to his combat service and being the sole caregiver for him..There was a lot transference during those years..I needed someone you specialized in this type of trauma..The Vet Center couldn't find a therapist or psych that was now working in the private sector that was willing to take on and help a Widow of a veteran..So this is why I came here looking for help and this program has helped me a great deal..
In closing I would like to say I really appreciate all the help this program and all of the Educators have given me..I have come a lot further than I ever thought I could have..I am now able to sleep at night which is something I wasn't able to do for years.
I rarely wake up in a panicked state now. I am able to enjoy the little things in life again..I can eat, drink, go for a walk out doors. I have even learned to let myself laugh and cry too..This has been a real journey, a real coming home for me. I am now look forward to the days ahead. There is still lots of work to do and I think I am now up for the challenage..
Sorry this is so long winded but it is something I am very emotional and passionate about..I felt it needed to be said..
We can certainly experience anger from memories. I encourage you to think about when you experience angry memories from the past. It is important to address and manage anger from the past as it can be quite damaging and debilitating.We will work through it together.
I do want to distinguish between anger and PTSD. Anger could be a symptom of PTSD but it is important to find appropriate treatment for PTSD in addition to any other work you do. I am pretty sure you already know that Red but I am including it here for anyone else who may be reading in a similar situation.
Sorry Hugs and Red, looks like I was not online when you responded.
Red, great advice,"Reinventing myself and trying to find what my role in life is now"
I sure do remember..I think what I am doing now at this time in my life is trying to find out who I am now..Reinventing myself and trying to find what my role in life is now..As for relationships I do ok with one committed relationship but have a very hard time letting anyone else get close to me..Its seems to be more than I can handle..
As for this exercise in expressing anger I am going to include memories in my evaluation of myself because my memories are a big part of who I am and how I react..
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