Hi Sunflower,
I'm really sorry to hear your job is making you feel unwell. That's a tough rut to be in. I was just noticing that you have some hobbies similar to my own. Do you get to take any time out for reading and painting? I see that you're currently in child care. Maybe you could write and illustrate childrens books? I hope this isn't out of line, I'm new to these forums. I was just thinking if these are things that you do enjoy, perhaps you could sort of change your career direction gradually to something you love to do. Unfortuantely I don't know the details of your situation and maybe that's not possible. Just a thought. I hope you feel better soon!
Galadrien