For the last month I have not been getting as many body symptoms now I feel they are "creeping" back up on me. I noticed the last week my appetite is gone again and when I do eat I get naucous and gassy, if I do not eat I get light headed and weak so I try just to eat to get some strength. Also last night I was quietly reading a book, I had taken my pill had a light snack of skim milk and a piece of cheese and my stomach was SO anxious like butterflies were just flying around in it, and this was after a snack and my pill and I was reading a non-scary good novel?! I so do not want these body symptoms to come back, they were so hard to control and deal with and accept, like "mini-anxiety attacks" or something, does anyone else get these too?
Today I got bit up by a mosquito a few times and I am freaking about west nile or dengue fever, we are having outbreaks of both where I live, I was just outside less than five minutes washing my mop out, now I am very nervous about that. I notice my sleeping is not good either, I wake up everyday feeling like I have not slept, I do get horrible broken-up sleep, like a young Mom with an infant or something? I wake up every hour or so to go to the bathroom or I have coughing fits, the dogs barking, two alarms going off at different times, I am sleeping too much during the day only because I have so much trouble falling asleep at night, no wonder I am so exhausted, my husband wants me to sleep more during the night and thats what I want, but if you dont sleep all night, you have to get a few hours during the day dont you? I do not want to take sleeping pills, I take klonopin now and that is too much meds! I thought when the panics went away the fear worry and other things would go with it and that has not happened, I so want to be fully recovered but its taking SO long, this has been going on for close to a year now, and I so much want it gone! The holidays are coming and I want to be alive and well and functioning alright.
I guess its going to take more time, I know you can not rush it but I dont want to go backwards just forwards, the health anxiety is all full-gear now, I was so hoping when the attacks decreased that would go away, but no such luck! Is this normal when you are getting better? Do people still get the depression and health anxiety and fear even through the panic has gone down? Don't get me wrong I am SO happy and grateful to God and this site for the panic' decreasing but the worry and fear is rampant, everynight I pray for God to fill me with his peace and light, its horrible to worry everyday like this, I guess I just have to give it more time and hope and pray it goes away, CBT is helping but I have to change my mindset, so much easier said than done!
