I started having panic attacks about 12 years ago, maybe a little longer...I have gone through many different types of episodes and down times, but this is one of the worst ever! I have not had anxiety this severe since I was pregnant with my last child, yet even then the panic attacks were less severe and the thoughts were worse. A few weeks ago I started feeling more and more anxious every day and finally out of no where I was pounded with one of the worst panic attacks ever. After a few visits to the ER in the following days I started to recognize some of the things that were escalating my panic were not going to harm me (amazing that in all these years I still have to do this) Sometimes you forget what feelings are okay to have when you go awhile without any major attacks. Anyway, I started taking xanax again and was starting to feel better...then I found out I was pregnant and am now having to wean myself off which is proving very difficult because I still feel so much panic pounding me and have had several more severe attacks. My doctor will not give me anything becuase of me being pregnant and already being high risk as well. I feel great hope about this program as I know that training your thinking can make the biggest difference, I just still feel fearful because my hormones/chemicals are so wacky right now and I can't control the panic that I just feel inside all the time. There is just this uneasy feeling deep inside constantly and I am trying desperatly not to get stuck in this and in the house. Today has been better than the last few, so again I am hopeful. I believe in God and believe that he will help but, but I do know that my mind needs to be renewed. I have to learn to think differently in order for me to deal with this!
