Davit-

 

Im so glad theres someone here that went through the same thing as I did. Ok so I was addicted to Xanax but I never depended on it to get through theday because I never had anxiety when I took them and all I used them for was to get high. I have a limited number of pills now but I rarely ever use them. But I always carry them with me when I go out just in case something happpens. Yeah thats what they told me but when I have a panic attack I try and get through it without pills and its horrible. Im not dependent on them now at all but I just like to have a couple nearby just in case. Yes, I am extremely annoyed with the limitations panic attacks put on me but Im also frightened to have another panic attack too because it a horrible feeling as you know. Of course I want my anxiety to go away. Doesn't everyone who was it want that? I will continue you take my pills because they help me control my anxiety but Im definently going to try this program. Thank you so much.

 

-Mia

Hello Mia,

 

Welcome to our online support community and thank you for sharing your story with us. As many of your fellow members have said you have come to the right place to receive support and encouragement to help you with panic. Please do get started on the panic program, you can begin by reading session 1. The program offered here is a CBT program and it will provide you with the tools you need to challenge negative thoughts and work on exposure.  

 

Get started on the program, post often and know that we are all here supporting you.

 

 

Hello Mia:  Have you come to the right place!  WELCOME.  You sound like a smart person.  This site offers a CBT Program, free of charge.  Research has shown that CBT is one of the best therapies for anxiety disorders.  I'm hoping that you start studying Chapter 1 as soon as possible.  You can study at your own pace, there's no time line.  There are exercises to do, a bit of homework to help you along the way.  I encourage you also to start the relaxation exercises, the box breathing, the muscle relaxation, the visualization.  These work especially well for me to relax my body and mind to cope with whatever stresses I encounter during the day.  I had to practice these exercises every day, morning and night.  I harp on this a lot because it's a way of life.  You may be familiar with the technique after reading about it, but without daily practice it will not come easily to you when you most need it.  Have faith and determination and believe!  I am panic free now, you can be too.  Good luck.  Keep posting, we are here to support you and answer any questions you may have if we can.  Looking forward to hearing from you again soon.

 

Sunny

welcome Mia, glad you have joined the program it is helpful and our friendly support group are always there to listen, someone will always reply to your posts, it must be hard for you being so young and feeling like you have these limitations put on you, you want to do things but your attacks stop you, i know how you feel. keep reading and learning the more you know the less power they have

 

your friend Debi

Mia,

Welcome to the program and support group..Its sounds like you have been having a hard time of it for while now.You have come to the right place. There are lots of us here dealing with some of the same things you are dealing with. Everyone is very nice here and they will listen. You are not alone in this anymore.

 

Glad you found us,

 

Red.

 

I had a couple of seizures getting off Ativan and was an Addict. There is a difference between that and dependence. Your Doctor may or may not be right. If you built a dependence and know you can do that then you would be relatively safe with a limited number of pills. But that will only make it worse. You are better off without them then. If you were actually addicted, more likely if you got seizures quitting, then you should not have access to any because they will quickly return you to your previous state. Tell me if I'm wrong, you sound more annoyed with the limitations panic attacks put on you than frightened of the effects? You sound like you just want them to go away. That being the case, you don't need medication. You need to do this program because CBT is proven to work. Don't stop what you are on, it will make it easier to absorb the information and act on it. 

Again welcome to the site.

Davit.

Ok so Im kind of new to this but Ill just start off by telling everyone a little bit about myself. OK well first off my name is Mia and Im 17 about to be 18. Im a senior in high school about to graduate and Im currently doing online school because now Im afraid of being in a classroom because Im scared to get a panic attack. I never had problems with it before but I just started getting really freaked out and anxious in school. Well Ive been diagnosed with Panic Disorder and Agoraphobia about two years ago. And since then I've been living a very diffucult life. This is going to get a little personal now. I actually used to ne addicted to Xanax for awhile. Then I quit taking them cold turkey and ended up having a couple seizures in one night. After that happened I didnt take any Xanax because I was so afraid of having a seizure. Then I started getting very anxious and afriad of having another seizure and one night I started freaking out and thought something was wrong and went to the ER. They told me I had a panic attack and I had no clue what that was. So I read up on it and was still a little confused. Well I was still worrying about having another seizure so Im guessing thats what triggered my other attacks. Then after I would have an attack somewhere I started avoid places where I felt uncomfortable and was constantly afraid of the feeling of having a panic attack again. Well that seizure thing didnt bother me much anymore but from time to time I still feel on edge about. Well two years later and now Im having horrible attacks all the time. At first it was a couple times a week that I would have them and Ive learned to control it a bit and now I get them about once a month or so. I go to a therapist and she kind of helps but not really. I just feel like when I talk to people about my anxiety nobody really understands me. I mean I have great friends and family that support me but I feel like they dont really understand me either because their not going through what I am. I dont know I just feel so depressed sometimes but I know things will get better. Well now Im taking 150 mg of Zoloft and 30mg of Remeron because I cant sleep at night because of this anxiety. My doctor wont perscribe me Xanax now for my panic attacks because I used to abuse them and it really frustrating now because Ive quit taking them for good and I will never use them to get high again. Even when I take one when Im having a panic attack all it does is take my panic away but the doctors dont care. Their saying that once your a druggie your always a druggie. I cant drive in car with my friends because I get really panicky and this anxiety is literally taking over my life. I just dont know what to do anymore. I would go to a new therapist to see if another one helps but my family doesnt have that kind of money to do that. Well sorry for writing so much but it just feels so nice to vent to someone who is going through the same thing. I know everything will turn out for the best in the end but sometimes I dont believe myself when I say this. Well thank you so much for reading this! :)

-Mia