Thank you Ocean.
I had a few minutes of feeling normal today. Then it went away. I don't have any worksheets printed up yet, so I wasn't able to get that recorded. What put me normal?
My sweetie called and it came up on my cellphone as Guy & Her Name & My Lastname. so If she was Sue, and I was a Smith, it came up as Guy & Sue Smith. I put that in my phone before she moved there because the phone company already gave us a number. She had it listed with my last name, since even though we're only engaged, we've been living together for 5 years and she knows I hate that she goes by her ex's last name. (Her maiden name was a source of problems for being confused with other people.)
The sun was also shining today. That helped. I tried to focus on those two good things. I had a good talk with a couple of my employers. Very good men that I consider friends and mentors. That helped.
My son lives with his Mom in another province and we talk on the phone twice a week. Tonight is one of those nights. It was good to hear his voice and hear him laugh.
I practiced what I learned in the section on Role Transition as much as I could. That was good.
I'm still spending most of my time in the anxious/panic zone, but sometimes I glimpse the light.
I realize it may take me longer to get down there than I want, or she wants. That's okay - I'm not dawdling though!
I realize she may not find what she's looking for down there and wants to come back. That's okay too.
As I breathe, I calm a bit. Today is about an 8 out of 10 for anxiety and a 7 for panic.
Thank you all!
