For the first two years when my daughter left for college, I was lost.  I was without purpose.  For me, it definitely related to anxiety, panic and depression.  What I did was make a list of what I did, before I was a wife and mother, when I was just me.  Then, I wrote a list of what I liked to do and what my dreams were when I was a child.  I looked up hobbies online and got several books.  Dream it. List it. Do it. is a book that gave me enough ideas to last a lifetime.  You may have forgotten about an interest you had and can revisit it now.  Anything you have put off to be a wife and mother, that you have time to do now.  I think books and the internet, and of course this support group has lots of fantastic ideas, that will stir up some thoughts for you.  I have my pets that need to be taken care of, so I have to be motivated to get up and take care of them.  They depend on me for food, water, love and attention.  I used to grow and collect cacti and succulents that need daily care.  If you can take care of something, a garden, or small pots to grow various herbs and have a potted herbal garden, those are some ideas.  I didn't feel passionate about anything for awhile and was bored and didn't think that I could find anything new.  But, then the whole chicken hobby has gotten a fire lit under me.  It's a project where I am enjoying the process.  I have to build a coop, I'm reading everything I can get my hands on.  I'll be able to get hens and it will be good to take care of the birds.  It will get me outside to feed, water, and clean the coop.  It's something I'll have to do, and not be able to blow it off.  You will find your spark, I understand your frustration, because I was there for awhile myself.  Are you a care taker kind of person?  If you can find something to take care of, it will get you going.  Just ideas and what I've done.  Hope this helps.

Arthritis Anxiety and High blood pressure go together and effect each other. It is hard to get motivated when you know what ever you do there will be some pain. It is hard to find a reason to eat properly if you are cooking for one. The inability to get a really good work out on top of this contributes to the elevated BP. Which contributes to the anxiety which makes me just want to sit in a chair. So I have a green house and garden. I have to get off my butt and weed and water. I never get all my groceries at once, so I will go outside more often. And when I have the time I visit. That is for the body for the mind I have my book which I am doing instead of the journal I used to keep. I also have this site and lots of research to do. Other things I do are I never buy bread and since I'm not diabetic there is no peanut butter in my house. If I want bread I make it. I keep lots of fruit handy and right now I'm overrun with vegetables. As for the pain I take pills and what is left I counter with positive thought. Motivation is a big thing and like dealing with the cure for panic, you have to want it to get it. So you have to want to do something because you can and I know how hard that can be. That is why we have a place to talk about what we are doing and planning, it doesn't get used enough though. Talking is part of group therapy and I'm going to start by saying today I will do laundry and dishes and make at least three meals, I also have to drive to the hospital for my needle and a dressing change. I will pick a couple of cauliflower to take with me and give to the nurses. If I don't hurt to bad I will go for a hot chocolate too. Some where in there I will water the greenhouse also. Why do this when home support will be here Tuesday? Because the exercise sends oxygen to my brain so I think clearer, because if I don't use this body it will get useless, but mostly because I want to. Besides Wanda is a good cook and I want her to batch cook instead of clean. She has my freezer full of heat and serve meals in small enough portions I can't pig out. It is very hard to get motivated but over the years I have found that not getting motivated to do something leaves the door open for negative thoughts. I don't beat myself up on the days I can't I just try harder on the days I can. It is especially hard when you don't have a job you have to go to.