Hello my dear friends,
Hope you are all coping well and continuing the battle, my well wishes are always with you.
Sorry for being away for so long, I have been working day and night to set up my new shop, which praise be to the lord is now open for business and is in its second week. I am working 16 hrs a day, 7 days a week so have had little time to join in the discussions, please forgive me. Broadband was installed yesterday so this is the first chance I have had to login.
To say that I am absolutely exhausted would be a massive understatement but it was worth all the effort. The last 30 days or so free have virtually been panic free!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To be honest I had not even noticed that I was without them if that makes any sense. I put it down to being completely pre-occupied with this new venture. It would appear my brain has had no room for negative thoughts, well until now. You see, things are settling down and my mind is going back to its old ways, but wait...............................a silver lining. This last 30 days have proved to be very educational and therapeutic with regards to panic. I t has sort of proven to me that it is actually all in my mind and none of the negative thought processes make any sense and there is no point trying to make sense of them either because you end up in a vicious circle. Even the physical symptoms have subsided and become manageable. Its almost like I have new control over the fear of fear.
Please do not get me wrong, I am far from cured but this little episode has worked wonders for my mind subconsciously and consciously. I hope I am making sense here, I am serving customers and trying to get all this down in a sensible fashion.
I hope all of you, my friends are doing well. God bless you all.
Your Amigo, Jas
