Hello everyone - -
Haven't posted for a few days, so I thought I should take a few moments to do that because a lot has changed in my life over the last few days.
Anyway, just this past Thursday (the 16th) was my last day of work. No, I didn't get fired *whew* - I left of my own free will. There are lots of reasons why I left, but the biggest reason was because I've been battling the worst anxiety of my life for the last 6 months (or so) and I came to the realization that I just wasn't getting better and I just needed the time to really focus on me and work on really getting better. So everything is fine financially, I have no worries there. I am taking the next three months, literally yes three months, to focus JUST on me and JUST on getting better. I am really excited about it, but also...scared, anxious and nervous. I guess I'm just afraid to fail and not make progress. I have a plan though! I need to share it with you guys. I feel if I answer only to myself I'll let myself get away with anything, y'know? Like, oh I don't have to work out today I can do that tomorrow...that kind of stuff.
Here's my plan and new goals:
The next three months are dedicated to me, so that I can focus on getting better and ridding myself of this anxiety and panic. In these next three months (and beyond) but the next three months for sure, I will:
- do yoga and go to yoga classes regularly, and by regularly I mean at least 3 times a week
- exercise at my apartment in our spare room that has been converted to an exercise room at least 3 times a week
- focus on my deep breathing exercises at least one time per day
- visit this website every single day and work on the CBT program, and stay committed to it even if I have setbacks, or if I feel like I'm not making progress. I really need to focus on the physical symptoms of anxiety and overcoming those, they are my biggest problem and I'm glad I can see that.
- visit this forum every day and either post or read about other people's accomplishments, setbacks and just connect with you guys
- I will let you know about my successes, and positive stories as well as anything not so great that might happen
- visit with my therapist on a regular basis (I really like her, so I can see her actually a few times a week :) )
Seems like a lot of stuff, but it'll be good because I don't have to work at all right now and I'm really grateful for that.
Thank you for reading my super long post ! :)
Spartan
