My negative core belief of rejection is deep rooted. I go along fine and then my insecurities kick in. It's a lifetime issue I've had and I guess it's going to take awhile to uproot and kill it. It had gotten so bad, in the past, that I became hermit like and decided that it was more stressful to have friends than to be alone with my pets. Since I don't want to become the crazy cat lady or chicken lady, if you've read my new hobby post, I guess I need to deal with this, so I'm posting it and not retreating which is what I'd really rather do, because it's easier not having to deal with the issue. When I meet new people, I want them to like me and I'm afraid that they will abandon me. I just realized today that I try to give people gifts, instead of letting the gift be the friendship. I guess it's a case of the "What if's" that is my arch nemesis. In general, I'm always afraid I'm going to say the wrong thing. When I'm anxious about one thing, I tend to generalize about other things and it snowballs. My cat decapitated and ate the head of a salamander and I don't know if it's poisonous, so I'm trying not to worry about that. I have a new friendship with a person and I'm trying not to worry about driving the person away. Then my email was giving me trouble and I couldn't get on this website and it was too many things at once. The positive is, I didn't go into a panic attack. I guess I need to challenge my thoughts with the 10 Questions for each individual issue. I'm tired, so I'll just post this. I know it's just an off day.