I began my journey on this site back in October whilst waiting for an appointment for therapy assessment with my local authority, I have had my assessment, and am still awaiting an appointment, meanwhile I have used this program religiously every day for the past 4 months. When I began the program I had taken myself off Zoloft as I did not like the person I had become, I was acting atypically, many of you were worried I may suffer from bad withdrawal and I thank you for your concern. I had taken antidepressants for over 20 years.
I am writing here today after a visit to my new Dr, I was getting nowhere with my old one, as they just kept prescribing and did no listening. I described my goals I had set on here and how I have achieved many of them, and also told her that for the first time in my 46 years of life I feel happy, content and I actually like the person I am, she looked at me and said, "well it looks like you have healed yourself, whilst waiting for the national health to get their act together and sort you out". I couldn't agree with her more.
I had been numb for so long, now I feel, I can see the world for the wonderful place it is and not through a haze of medication, my mind is healthy and positive.
My main goal was to repair my fractured relationship with my youngest daughter, thing's had become so bad we had not spoken properly in almost 2 years and we became estranged 9 months ago. My daughter graduated as a Psychologist and counselor in July last year, I wasn't invited to her graduation which made my depression worse, and after following this program, traveling this road, which is a long one, and I can travel it, I can do anything now. I am so happy to say that after witnessing the change in my attitude and mood my daughter has now invited me back into her life. Of course I am ecstatic about this but I am also proud of myself for putting the amount of work into myself that I have. I know I still have a long way to go on this road but at least now I can see the beauty along it, smell the wonderful aromas surrounding me, and enjoy the rest of my life.
I have all of my family on here to thank for your support and words of encouragement. If I can have a healthy mind after having clinical depression for over 20 years then anyone can, this program truly does work, if you are thinking about working with us, stop thinking and join in, you will reap the benefits, believe me.
Happy 2012, I can now live my life instead of just existing.