Hello! I did not realize it until very recently. 17 months ago, I had a baby. I had alot of what I know now were anxious thoughts. I had some gallbladder trouble throughout my pregnancy and it continued afterwards. I constantly worried about it. I thought for sure I had cancer or something else wrong. I constantly worried if I die who will take care of my son. (I do have family, so this should have not been a concern) I wondered how he could live without me. I would have very vivid imaginations of tragic accidents among family members. Who knew these thoughts would lead me to where I am today. I'm a nervous wreck. I feel as if i'm living in a constant state of panic. If I had only known what these negative thoughts were leading to, i would have sought help much sooner. Now with all the anxious/panic I have the gallbladder issue has resolved itself. STRANGE I know! I'm trying to use this program to the best of my ability. I have a very difficult time writing down my anxious thoughts because half the time I don't know what they are, except that I feel miserable. I don't have the imaginations anymore but i still do get very scared at times second guessing myself. Almost wishing there was something else wrong besides anxiety. I've been to the ER twice & to my Family doctor once and they always say "anxiety". Keep reading this forum and try to work through the program.. The forum alone helps me tremendously. I just started the program so i can't tell about it yet, but i'm not giving up yet.
