Hiya guys and gals,
Hubby left. We fought. Over what? Over territory. He says I hog the t.v./ living room. I told him I have nowhere else to hang. He has the little bedroom / office. That room is his. I only go there when he wants company or to print things. I don't have that. I don't have a room. But still, since I am most often in the living room, since he has the office and plays there (video games) alot. He expects that he should be able to just commandeer the living room when he wants it. I couldn't commandeer the office whenever I want though...So yeah we fought over territory. Shocked neither of us peed in all four corners of the room...I told him I felt like I have nowhere, like if he throws me out of the living room I have nowhere...He figures he is the one who has nowhere and that he is stuck in the office and has nowhere to go. What a mess...
Anyway, not exactly sure how things went, it is all a blurr now...Anyway, he took his car keys and left. I asked him where he was going, he said:"I don't know.". I asked are you going to come home? He said: "Probably not, I don't know." I said ok well can you at least call me if you land somewhere for the night so I don't stay up all night worried you are in a ditch or somthing. He said:"...". Yup nothing at all, he just left. I told him to be careful. Asked him to call me once again. Again no answer. And he gets into his car and he just drives away, no goodbyes, no wave, no I will call you. Nothing. Not a word. And he is gone.
I don't know if he will be back. So for now I am up and I am waiting. I am sitting here holding one of his old t-shirts because it smells like him. I am here terrified something bad will happen to him as he drives around angry in the midlle of the night. Waiting.Waiting to see if he comes home. Waiting to see if he sleeps somehwere for the night, to see if he calls me, to see if he is safe. I just wait anxiously with my heart pounding...I had had a good day...had...
All of this because I wanrted to finish my stupid kiddie movie when he wanted the t.v...
Life s**ks. It really really s**ks!
. But we did have a good chat this morning. He even turned off the computer. Not usre what will happened but at least we tried.
Diva , good grief girl ! How amazing and brave are you ? Im in awe here . 
