Thanks Diva!
This weekend was my birthday and I decided to have a small karaoke party with a few friends. I was really nervous because my friend was going to bring her best friend(the one I can't get used too), and other than that, I was worried if all will go well, altogether. But I just told myself, that it's my birthday, and I won't let anxiety ruin it. And if it does, it doesn't matter what my friends think, because if they are true friends, they will forgive me, and if not, then good-bye. But whatever the outcome, I figured I will learn something. So I did it! And I got really really anxious towards the beginning. We were stuck in a small room with 6 of us, no AC! It was really hard to breathe, especially to sing! What was I thinking?!! I thought to myself... to sing when I have anxiety and difficulty breathing... but singing is what I enjoyed most, and I was sad that I couldn't do it without feeling like dying! I let the others sing the rest of the way and as time passed, I started to relaxed. So many times, I wanted to tell them I wanted to leave, but I didn't. Towards the end, I was back to normal and I felt relieved... 3 hours was finished. I didn't really have to converse with the girl, but I was still intimidated by her. I wished I could've been my best... but I accept that I did my best in this condition. I was so tired at the end of the night.
