No need to apologize Lorlee, We all have "Oh woe is me days". I am glad you came here and shared how you felt with us. I know I sure feel angry and sad at having this now and then. It is like I feel like asking why me? I feel like just hating everything... But then I have a few good days and then it is not so bad anymore lol. That might make me simplistic, I don't know...
I think it is easy for us to switch one worry for another because we are so used to worrying we just don't really know how to stop sometimes. If it isnèt one thing it is another. That is why I was so impressed with the program. It teaches you how to challenge your thoughts and eventually think differently.
I think the hardest part is to just keep at it even tho it is not an instant thing. After all this time living with this I think we all wish an instant cure was available sometimes.
Anyway, I wish I knew what to say to make your day a little better. All I can really say is I empathize with you and I truely believe in my heart that there is hope for people like you and me and that better days can come about. Oh and be kind to yourself, we all have bad days and that is when we must be the most gentle with ourselves. You deserve much kindness :)
Remember, this too shall pass!
-Diva
