Diva,
I can completely understand you. That was my fright during my university years.
The time, when I had to write and present my Bachelor paper was very tough for me. It was the time I was in clynical depression. So, imagine how hard it was for me to pull myself together.
I wrote my Bachelor paper without the help of my advisor. I slept only some hours at night. Very hard time for me, again..
At the day of my presentation I felt like really sick (physically and mentally). When I get to the Univeristy, I realized that I will not be alone with my opponents, there will be other people presenting their Bachelor papers as well (about 20 of them) and listening to my presentation. The scenario is like this: one comes in front of the class, presents his/her paper and then sits and listens to others presenting their papers. When it was my time to present the paper, I thought I will go crazy. I started to speak, I was so nervous and anxious I hardly could stand there in front of the class. I started to tremble. Tt as so embarrasing! Others looked at me like they have understood "This girl is really a nervous case". I was so ashamed of myself!!! I looked at my opponent, she was hiding her head in her hands. That was the highest point, the culmination :D I stopped to speak for a moment. Then I thought "I don't care what others think. The worst thing has happended- finally they have seen me panicking. The most important thing for me is to present my Bachelor paper and then I will be free of this stress!" I took a deep breath and although I was still trembling, I continued to speak. (A note- I had to present my paper in English and it is not my native language, so imagine how difficult it is in panic situations to think and speak another (foreign) language!) But I did it. I presented my paper and got a mark. The mark was not very good because of my nervous presentation although the paper was quite OK. But I didn't care about it anymore. I had graduated from University (finally) and it was a relief for me. When I got out of the class, I was crying but not because of my mark. I was crying because this was a relief after such intense inner pressure.
What I wanted to tell you by this is:
1. At extremal situations we can pull ourselves together if we really w