I have been out of school for a month now for winter break and it is time to return. School starts tomorrow and I am freaking out. I am petrified to go back. I just can't go through what I went through last quarter. I had to go to class 5 days a week which meant 5 days of crying, worrying, nausea, chest pains, palpitations, dizziness, headaches, fatigue. I put myself in the same situation everyday for about 2 hours for each class and my anxiety never got better. I had some good days, like the day I was able to give a presentation, but most of the days were a constant battle. I had to sit there and take notes and at the same time talk myself out of a panic attack. At the end, it got bad and I actually blacked out in class. I don't want to give into the anxiety and I don't want to let the anxiety take over but I really really do not want to go to school this quarter. I am trembling and shaking with fear and I am sick to my stomach thinking about it. Inside I want to go and I want to enjoy it and finish but, physically, my body is saying you can't handle another 10 weeks with that kind of constant stress. What should I do? I desperately need encouragement and I only have tonight to make a decision. If I don't go I am letting it beat me but if I do go, I know it will be extremely difficult and physically and mentally draining. I am not up for the challenge, I just don't want to do it. Please, help if you can.
