Hi CComeau14,
I am very sorry to read how you have been feeling. Depression can be so debilitating. The fact that you were trying to manage with exercise and diet is great work. Try to keep doing this, even if it is a little less then what you were able to. Every little bit helps. I also recommend working on the program. It sounds like you have the physical aspect of depression management down pat, perhaps focusing on the mental aspect will give you the improvement you are looking for. This program will give you the basics of Cognitive Behaviour Therapy(CBT) for depression. CBT is considered the most effective therapy there is for Depression. Many people start to notice a difference after just the first few sessions. Try to complete one session a week, but if you have to take longer, that is ok too. The homework is the most important part to complete. If you have any questions at all or just want to vent, please post here. You are not in this alone.
Take care,
Ashley
I'd managed my depression really well up until recently. I've been through a lot, as we all have with the pandemic and life in general. I thought I was adapting ok, and the last 3-4 weeks, I've felt myself sliding into the dark pit that is my depression. I'd been managing it with exercise, and diet. It worked ok, with a couple off days of grey interspersed here and there. I'd been able to go to work and push past it. The last two days, i've not been able to face work, or the outside world. Usually working out, and eating right, and spending time with my boyfriend would help. Now, it's not helping. I get to the gym, struggle through a workout, go home and go straight to bed, and not just cry, but sob, when I'm not sleeping. No amount of anything I used to enjoy has been able to pull me out of this.