Hello, used to post on here as TheRock I think the name was, but can't find my password.
My anxiety attacks came back about 7 months ago, when there was a lot of stress in my life. I thought it was just stress and when everything was fine would go away....but here I am, on New Years Day, doing just horrible :(
I couldn't go out tonight with my wife because I couldn't deal with it. I was scared to be amongst a crowd. I've been getting this way a lot lately. I've only been able to handle work mostly because I've been taking ativan daily. But I've been taking that a lot, and now I'm getting bad mood swings.
I'm having lots of bad depression too, with lots of awful scary thoughts. I can't go to bed at a proper time because I usually just lie there and have panic attacks as my mind wanders.
I also had OCD as a kid, and its came back now in a form as about 5 months ago my jaw started making a loud clicking noise or rather I could click it and it would make noise and now I cant stop it. I must do it 1000+ times a day. Just writing this paragraph I've did it about 43 times. I know its not good but I cant stop unless I cram my fingers in my mouth.
I'm having problems with everything. Find it hard to eat, scared of choking, every chest pain or head pain I think I'm going to die. Seeing two counsellors, had a medical checkup with doctor.....but nothing is helping.
I hate this :( I just dont know what to do anymore.
